Ade masih inget banget si mamah suka maenan game di PC Pentium III sore-sore. Si mamah maen bola-bola yang kayak tetris. I  don’t know why she liked to play that, hampir tiap hari mamah maen itu. She got the best score among the players at home, but in fact she’s  good at everything kecuali nangkep tikus. Ade inget si mamah takut sama tikus, kalo ada tikus si mamah lompat-lompat, terus latahnya julatjulitjulatjuliatjulatjulit… terus ade ktawa sampe nggak bisa nangkep tikusnya. Ade juga inget waktu mamah nemenin ade belajar pas besoknya mau ujian nasional fisika. Si mamah tau ade takut fisika tapi suka banget matematika. Udah gitu, si mamah terkenal banget hobinya suka nyikat kamar mandi, sampe saking giatnya nyikat kamar mandi, lem-lem di sela-sela ubinnya lepas, trus aer kamar mandi ngerembes ke lantai bawah. Waktu kecil, kalo ade jatoh sampe luka, si mamah langsung ngomel-ngomel gini “kamu ngapain siiiiii?” padahal si mamah panik sendiri.

Si mamah…., sampe kapanpun, kita gak pernah lupa kalo mamah yang ngajarin ade untuk baik sama semua orang because you showed me how to do that. Yah… si mamah…. we didn’t have a lot of time to know you better, more than just a mother. I didn’t  cry a lot at the moment you passed away, but I did cry whenever I remember how lovely you were. I was sad whenever I my friend said “Lucky me, I still have mom though my dad already passed away” (whoever she/he is… ). I did cry every 22 December. I felt bad whenever someone told me how lame his/her mom is. But I know, I just needed a time to figure out how to stand with my own feet. Mamah, don’t worry, We’re doing fine here, We’ll take care si papah. But  it doesn’t mean we can forget you easily.

Momen-momen si mamah maenan game di PC pentium III, si mamah ketiduran, si mamah lari-lari karena takut tikus, si mamah basah-basahan abis nyikat kamar mandi, si mamah nawar ayam di jatinegara, si mamah beli jilbab di tanah abang, dan ngomel-ngomelnya… we captured all those things in our mind.

Because we don’t keep her picture a lot, but we keep the feeling when we were together, karena secanggih apapun alat perekam, apapun itu, mau video kamera atau digital kamera berapa megapixel pun… gak ada yang sanggup merekam rasa yang ada when we spent our time together. Untuk yang satu ini, ade gak prcaya sama yang namanya teknologi.